the breakup

i really like this movie.
i really like that [SPOILER!!] they don't stay together.
i like real.
reality.
sometimes it sucks... but sometimes... just, sometimes... reality can be so much better than anything else.
i don't know where i am right now.
i feel like i'm in limbo. purgatory. i am in a very good place in life right now- i am beyond blessed, there are FINALLY good people around me and i am free to do whatever i want and be whoever i want to be...
but there is that calm before the storm... i know something's going to happen; life is going to throw a fastball... and i'm questioning myeslf- what if i can't handle it? what if i break other people while trying to hit it?
i'm nervous in anticipation.
man, being tired & by myself can conjure up some weeeiirdd ass thoughts.