things that make me upchuck:

- bitches 'n hos. no, seriously.
- when i leave papers to do for myself last minute.
- not having money.
- confused little boys.
- my house mate's dog.
- stinginess.
- boredom.
- wannabe ___s.


i think that about completes my list. well, the characteristics that i can think of right now anyway.
i really don't want to edit this paper... then write three more. aweeesome!

dancing machine ~

so i rarely do anything for my birthday, so i thought a vegas trip was in order to remedy that.
things did not turn out as I expected, but i have to say... i had a mighty fine tiime!!
oh man.
- the djs: REALLY? last time i was at vegas, the music was just horrible! tao & xs were the worst. this time? AOKI, OAKENFOLD, AND FELIX. what's up. i ... was going crazy. i have to say i enjoyed felix the most. man. badASS mixes. made my heart pounddddddd.
- the boys: HELLO, RAIN! love love LOVED the international crowd. i love that electronica can bring us all together <3. most exotic of the night? meeting a man/boy (late 20s? haha) from georgia... the COUNTRY! long ways to have fun, i think! of course, saw some aussies. i think they are always at vegas. i never have a vegas trip without seeing/speaking with some aussies. party animalzz.
- the drinks. strong, cheap, and free. just how i love it ;)
- being in a bed with a close friend for a whole day due to exhaustion/stomach flu. oh the conversations we had... <3
- the food: best bruschettas i've ever had at wolfgang puck pizzeria. DAYUM. & hot, legit pho after a night of drinking on a cloudy day? yes pls!
- the entertainment: adored HP7. LOVED the jabbawockeez show @ the monte carlo, & thoroughly enjoyed the fire show/acrobatics in RAIN. O_O
i... need to go again.
bahaha.
delirious &.... checking out. good night!

old habits

die hard.
i have a bad habit of taking my laptop to school.
it all started when i just HAD to watch the giants games online when they were on tues/thurs (THANK YOU, ATDHE!).
and then it evolved into "well, this class is boring anyway." <-- which it truly was.
then it became, "oh shiiii i need my laptop!!"
i am taking a very useful course with a very sound professor called ... i forget what it's called, but it's all about couple's therapy. i should be paying extra attn to this class because i will be doing... MARITAL counseling...
he has a skeleton of his lectures on a powerpoint online. i can fill out the blanks on my own, right..?
read the textbooks, email him with relevant questions...
who am i kidding??
ack! crisis!

T.O.M.

i hate the TIME OF THE MONTH.
or before it, actually.
i have nonsensical thoughts about things that i probably don't even WANT.
hence, i drive myself crazy.
maybe i should just get a dog...

giant

"you picked a good year to follow the giants... and people can't even call you a bandwagon fan because you started following them in the regular season when they were behind the padres."
-- classmate nate
got me thinking. . .
i think i have a giant annoyance with people that compare me to everyone else for several reasons; i have one, though, in particular that i think is very important.
in the course of history, the masses never had it right.
to be "like everyone else" was never a celebration.
the fad was never wise.
there was always ONE person who actually thought to start anything that was RIGHT. see martin luther king jr., martin luther, rosa parks, henry david thoreau. they were never popular. they were never LIKE anyone else. they were actually very UNpopular. People didn't necessarily LIKE them. People became very UNcomfortable with them.
i want to be great. i have great plans for myself. i don't want to be like everyone else.
i want to follow the greats and be a thinker. people may not like me, that's fine. as long as i live by my convictions, i can say that i have been honest with myself & have embraced the life as i live it.
maybe i am being pretentious. maybe i am reaching for too much.
i have one life.
why the hell not!? :)

Is there ever a good time to be listening to James Blunt?