why so serious?

i am really lovin' my long hair, but not lovin' the amount of time it takes to dry it.
blow drying my hair is out of the question at this moment because it is 1:16am &my room is closest to my parents' room in which they are currently resting their eyes.
GG :(

"As Keats wrote, '[d]o you not see how necessary a World of Pains and troubles is to school an intelligence and make it a soul?'"

so when i'm happy i'm happy, and when i'm sad i'm developing... into a more conscious & beautiful human being.
could i ever go wrong?

happy IV

i'm really glad i was never wrongfully accused of a crime so heinous that i would have to serve my whole life in jail for a crime i never committed.

POWW!

in a really strange funk.
don't even want to interview tomorrow, but gotta PULL THROUGH.
i think a good 90% of life is bucking up & wading through the shit that is life.
the only difference between you & me is that i DEFINITELY have a light at the end of the tunnel.
heh.
herrre's to the ups, downs, and inbetweens of our livesssssssssss.
yessir!

happy III

when i lived up north, i was always looking back at what i left in LA.
at that point, i missed the friends i grew up with for 7 years, a good chunk of my life at 12.
i missed korea town & its amazing food/cafes/attractions.
i missed the warm weather.
i missed what seemed like "diversity."
now that i have come back down from living up north, i realize...
i miss the friends i grew up with for 9 years, a good chunk of my life at 22.
i miss san francisco & its amazing food/cafes/attractions.
i miss the cold weather.
i miss the diversity.
how strange it is that i am feeling the same things, but not feeling the same things.
in either case, i am slowly learning. i am learning that as humans, we are made to be sub creators. because we were made in the image of God, with characteristics like our Father, we were also made to produce and finish tasks to what we deem "good."
and in my life down here, as uncomfortable as i find myself, i am still building-- building friendships, a career, a life. ... & in and through that, i am always thankful. 

happy II

"Hi grace, <3 love you and hope you have a wonderful day! :)"
Jessica Tang, Sent 7:58AM

"Listening to the replay of the game instead of eating breakfast hahha Good Morning!"
Wesley Wu, Sent 7:27AM

Thank God for such beautiful friends!
They definitely do a good job of putting smiles on my face :)

happy

there are lots of things that make me happy--
1. novelty: people, jobs, schools, etc. novelty makes my heart sing. i'm not necessarily talking about new things, like new gadgets (although those are fun too!). i'm talking about new experiences! i think those are imperative to living a full life.
2. stories: i love listening to stories. make my ears sing.
3. teamwork: i think this is the #1 reason as to why i like the sports teams i do. it's sad; i do even analyze individuals on teams. i tend not to like teams with "stars," but stars with TEAMS. a good group of guys throwin' a ball around. the american dream!
4. friends: especially the ones i'm going to vegas with. i'm really excited about this trip. :)
5. san francisco: i really do want to settle down in this city eventually. it's without the hustle and bustle of a city like new york, but completely charming!
6. humility: i can learn a lot from these sort of people.
7: people: people that know what adversity really is & have overcome it.
8. luck: i think everyone should have a little; unfortunately that is not always the case :(
9. the number 13: hehehe only because it's nash & ross's jersey #s.
10. nature: always, always, always.
11. the internets!: thank you, al gore ;)
12. my God: because he is everything i could ever hope for in a first love. <3
13. people that upset me: because in those people is my opportunity to become stronger.

i'm going to end with 13 because, well, it's a strong number. ;)

right now. in this moment.

i am so encouraged by the omnipresence of God.

you know what i don't like?

i don't like when people put up cutesy inspirational stories with famous names.
i just read a story about a boy that disproved his professor by turning the professor's argument against God to one FOR God.
And although it was an amazing feat and cute story, i'm not sure if someone recorded that as Albert Einstein.
Oh please.
Give me a fucking break.
It could be Einstein, who knows? But it also didn't have to be... & then you look like a turd.
Anyway.
Yesterday was not a good sports day for me nor is today a good Funday for me. I have to write out a midterm that I neglected to even look at the past weekend in fear of already doing badly on the test (I know, neurotic).
Sooo here I sit on this cloudy day (thank GOD), writing up answers to concepts that I haven't even realized were so deep until now.
At least I have my tea with me. I looove green tea.

gg.

game over?
(i know, i hate hidden messages too... HAHA. deal.)

opened up a can of fucking worms.

now all i can do is wait.
i am not so good at waiting.
i welcome the challenge ;)

RANT

this is no particular rant about anything in particular. no, i lie.
this is about one person.
ever since i've met him, he's haunted my mind.
there is no particular reason; he seems normal enough. there's nothing super special about him, he's like any other guy.
but there's something about him that draws me to him, draws me to thinking about what he might be thinking about.
i want to pick at his mind, but not. i want to unveil what it is that makes him so magnetic, but allow the mystery to stay.
i'm trying to study for a final, and all i can think about is not thinking about him.
i get like this sometimes.
i think i fall in love everyday.
with nature, with a person, with the giants...
i'm not sure if this is particularly healthy, but i don't know how to be anything else.

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sometimes i would write out what i am studying on my blog so that i can write out what exactly i am learning... but even these thoughts are going in one ear out the other.
all i want to do now is run away to the beach with my journal and let my heart and mind be still.
be still and know that He and He alone should be the only one totally captivating my heart. goodness He's certainly done enough! <3

(untitled).

i hope i never stop being grateful for those that fill my heart with laughter.
i am so humbled.

c'est la vie

my head is pounding and my body is exhausted, but i can't sleep.
sometimes, wondering about life leads me to the strangest thoughts...
after all, who knows what could happen tomorrow? tomorrow is a new day-- full of new wonders & possibilities.
ENDLESS POSSIBILITIES!