let's talk philosophy!

i'm at a point in my life where i want to make the decision to live recklessly or to not.
for most of you that know me, i am not a very 'average' person.
i'm either, go HARD or go HOME.
i don't like to live an average life.
so here is my problem:
i have an enigma of a boy that i hang out with. he is very cute, very funny, very artsy... everything that i enjoy in a person. we fiddle with his camera, watch stupid comedies on his tv and try to make the stonehenge out of cookie dough.
we stay up all night drinking mike's hard lemonade and make bad decisions together.
we go out to restaurants only to order the most obscure things & make fun of the people staring at us because we are an 'interracial' ... thing.
we have discussions as to what we like, dislike, belive in, and don't believe in. we have discussions as to how cute/annoying his puppy is & as to why we can't be too involved in each others' lives.
we don't understand each other at all and we are simply ok with that.
the more that i hang out with this person, tho, the more i enjoy my life & thus, the more i fall for him.
we are, were, never will be meant to be together.
i can NOT think of raising a family with him & spending the rest of my life with him.
he drives me crazy in a good way AND bad.
so is it worth it to continue seeing him?
i can either continue seeing him, be hurt, and learn to move on, again, from a bruised heart.
OR
i can stick it out now and stop talking to him, giving up a life that i enjoy so that i can, what... be ok? continue living my life now?
i love my life now. but he adds to my life now.
now comes the question of "God's plan."
i only put that phrase in quotations because i, in all honesty, do not know as to which route to take.
i can either--
a. continue hanging out with him. jesus makes all for good. i do believe it. in any bad situation there is a positive. maybe i will learn my lesson. maybe i will make better decisions in the future due to what happened.
b. stop hanging out with him. & ... be patient? apparently what i want can be bad for my (emotional) health. but what God provides can be 100x better than what i had.
either way there is a gamble.
should i... be happy now, be hurt, and be happy later?
or be without, be happy later?
both end with happy endings (snicker), but which risk am i willing to take?
i hate boredom & waiting. which has brought me to a pain-stakingly HARD decision to make.
maybe it's time to cultivate a vaccine for boredom & learn to be patient.
maybe it's time for me to grow up.
i think i've made my decision. but damn it all it ain't gon' be fun fo' awhileee.