positive

i wish i was a more positive person.
truth is, i'm not.
i have no reason NOT to be positive.
i grew up in a nice, christian korean-american home.
my brother & i (relatively) get along.
i have great friends.
tons of crazy relatives.
lots of possessions.
a hope that transcends reality.
...
but i'm just not.
i'm not saying i'm NEGATIVE. i guess i could be a realist?
sigh. not really that either.